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It's been 17 hours and 15 days...
WHO! Who! can resist singing the SHIT outta that song? I caught someone mime singing their favourite song to the power of 10. They were immediately chagrined and I tried to give them the ME TOO! eyebals which probably came off more as I'm off my meds eyes. *kanyeshrug*
I'll tell you my "hey look what I made!" is tremendous tonight. It has salmon and bacon and cheese and shitload of dill, garlic etc but I keep having to put down my fork in between bites and look at it to avoid shovelling myself a solid food tube. Gluttony. gaddamn. I thought about having water with dinner but that made me think of my thrice lost David's Tea water bottle (come back to me baby) and that made me sad so I am having wine instead.
Omigod. And waiting to watch mid season finale of walKing dead with my best friend. Like we're 16. Jazzed.
Fuck this is delicious.
I need to buy more of my friends' art. I know talented fucking people, I should be financially supporting more of them. The thing is Jeff makes really nice shoes and I want a pair a year until my boss gives me a raise and then I want two. Or I win the lottery and I get everything I see MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
I need cooking lessons, I want my rice in friend rice crispy and to know how to cook with 15 kinds of mushrooms and oh, discipline. I hella need discipline.
I'm eating directly over my Mac. And let's give a wee shout out to the old warhorse! 7 years with this baby and I am not kind nor gentle. I mean, Universe, this isn't me poking at you I can't afford a Mac right now but when I can I'm taking Bessie out to the back 40 pouring Hennessey on her and WHOOSH!
It's only right. peaches set it off
Totally not what I will do because Mother Earth, amirite? But man, who hasn't dreamed of taking a piece of office equipment out to a grassy knoll a la Office Space (gem) but a) I'd have to get it out there #lazy b) I'd have to bring a couple friends and something for the smashing #planningfail #still lazy and c) the Environment #mylazyassisNOTfingercombingforeverypiecetotaketothedump - but the thought of making with the smashy smash honestly makes my heart race. With joy, obviously. Which made me think of smashing plates which makes me think of Greece which makes me think of the Greek island where people don't age. #stilldreamin
I only listen to D'angelo in J-Do's car but as he has ust popped up on my iPod, I hope the world gets more of his voice. And Lauryn Hill's. Shit, I love Lauryn's voice, it's transportive. I love music/art's ability to make a maelstrom of your calm emotional centre. Haha. kidding. Like more than 312 Buddhists have calm centres. But not kidding about music, voice of the soul 'tis. Got my sway on there for a minute. I cannot wait to be swaying with a dude my soul vibrates in sympatico with to gorgeous songs to in sultry heat on vacation. Specifically. Oh, and the music is live in the background. Lots of drums.
I am happy a whole lot of the time (high five Universe) but when I am a moody C U Next Thursday I swing lower as people notice immediately and are all commenting and shit. And I'm grateful people care, truly, but I know I just need some time. I am working on seeing whatever my triggers are (change of plans sometimes) but now I know that I need space to pinpoint the actual cause of my distress and be able to articulate it instead of passive aggressive silence and burying.
It's possible I have had too much wine or my general clumsiness has come to the forefront as I have now spilled wine over my keyboard. Bet that won't be biting me directly in the derriere. I need to enter more contests and get the things I need. Eventually my luck will out, it usually does. And Life has told me many, many, many times watch what you say/wish for. I get it more often than not. Sorry, computer.
I am going to be sleeping on my first new bed in my life tonight. All the previous have been hand me downs. Okay, I lie - the princess canopy bed I had when I was 4. That was a real nice bed, the canopy was white with tiny flowers on it spaced far apart so it was just a nice light diffuser. I also was sure I was a princess at that age since Dida assured me of said fact. He knows pretty much everything so...
I have been on hold with Rogers 5 times today - it's the worst. Not the worst in comparison of genocide, which is actually the worst dear God what are we doing about Sudan?, but still getting a new answer each time makes it a little aggravating. Especially when the person you are calling for might be one the more reactive side of life. I have worked in telecommunication but not the call centre side and I do have empathy for those burdened souls. To a point, then I do get rage filled when it feels like the person on the other end really DGAF. Which I also understand, sometimes when someone is being a jerk or asking for something that I simply cannot provide I don't either but being the recipient can really send me 0 to 100 in the red zone. There must be a better way or large companies will rework their customer service to being more inline with MEC. Shout out to MEC! The greatest!!
Which reminds me, I have sweet camping gear and no camping plans. I need some. Although, I do have other travel plans so I guess I should get off of this complain train.
It's glorious in Ontario right now. I cannot be more thankful. Every single moment that it's above 15 deg, I feel unbridled joy. Or at least right now.
I hope there is unbridled joy in your day.
a haiku
just care for each other
dancing like wild things fireside
sunlight melting cold
xo
