Trying to make salve for the first time and the site I am following said decarb for 20 mins which is 4:20 pm EST this day so thought I should roll one and something about good omens.
I am pure comedy to me - full stop - when I read what I have written weeks later and will again say I wish I did this more often but the flesh is weak and things. ANYHOO! I am...talent shallow when it comes to baking and science. So for the TL;DR version, the above did not, in fact, come thru.
I will never abandon the idea that there is a baker within me but frankly, I am addicted to hyperbole. We all know but! (I have no idea what this means. I may have sampled the above attempts. #YOLO)
Podcasts live on such a really want to get to it list and keep seeing post fb lists of ones they wax poetic on and friends agreeing on podcasts and if there's anything I like to throw my support behind stuff my bubble agrees on, and yet.
I do many moves to make sure I am the good person in the story unless I stop caring - I realize I have typed a version of that sentence a million times trying to present my selfishness before claiming an innate desire to be kind. The fact that I lose my temper negates the fact that I try to help the life of others every day as well. Also, had a really great chat with my BFF today in two parts (Reminder: coming for the crown, ohehnee) where I realized how much I push guilt onto myself which I allow to compound my resistance to course correction later. Putting a pin on digging up the origin and new way of being around that for soon.
Thinking of people I have boned in the past even that I didn't treat with camping rules (better than you found it) I know I could go back still. I always leave first and am a babe so... there's no excuse. Going forward I am gonna lean into a year of Yes (has anyone I know read that book? Can you save me a mo and tell me if the title is the point summed up?)
One thing from my time with Gareth is I am a master at shutting down emotion like I can visualize the bricks forming around the thought/pain/emotion which is another thing on the lifelong list to massage into a light, guilt free zone.
I've barely read this to take out the most obvious mistakes but I don't know where Iw as going with this mess but I'ma just hit publish and see if I can start anew. Spoiler alert, I sure fucking can.
a haiku:
does it have to make
sense or are all thoughts legit
not in this sweet brain
xo
A
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